What's next?

Here's the latest.  I was told I have epstein barr which is Mononucleosis.  It is latent and chronic...as mono is unless it's active.  I was put on a bunch of supplements and a "diet" to help aid my body in fighting off the virus as it has been linked to miscarriages.  However I work in a hospital for women with eating disorders and I eat every 2 hrs with the girls, so i am mainly doing the supplements and the diet when I can. I do notice a difference in my body when I'm eating according to the plan verses not.  Its pretty amazing how certain foods make one sick and you have no clue because its normal for you.  I pray my higher power will magnify my efforts.
We have gotten off the hulkosterone and will be on birth control until we decide to move forward with implanting again.  I have had a few people close to me announce they are pregnant.  It still hurts a lot,  but I'm trying to be excited for more children in my life.  I think about if they had to go through this.  I can honestly say I wouldn't have it any other way.  I'm glad they don't have fertility struggles.  We all have our own struggles.  These struggles may be the hardest we ever deal with in this life.  I also know we will get through them.  First off there is no choice and second we all have an intense desire to be happy or to be peaceful.  We will do whatever we need to in order to find the peace.  Sometimes that means letting go of our plan to our higher power.  It's not an overnight occurrence but a fire that will purify us and make us more happy than we thought possible.  For some it lasts a short time for others it lasts a lifetime.  Either way , there is happiness to be had and peace to be made.  I encourage you to find something that is keeping you from being happy or finding peace and ponder what needs to happen in your life for you to get there. Start working towards that goal.  There may be many steps and you may feel overwhelmed.  Work on one thing at a time and then add in the next thing.  I know there are a million things we are "supposed" to be doing.  If we do one at a time we will see the progress and feel the happiness and peace instead of overwhelmed at all the other things we're not doing yet. 
Life is short...take it one day and one thing at a time.